Awesome as an army with banners! Prophesy from a youth of 13!

So delighted that the church is not a building at all. The church is the Lord’s people.  And wow, when it was discovered that I had the dreaded disease, cancer, the Body of Christ moved right into action. There is a verse in the Song of Solomon (6:4) that reads:

“Awesome as an army with banners! The Body of Christ started praying, mobilizing help, praying more, and mobilizing meals-praying, encouraging, and helping- incredible! Awesome as an army with banners!

Yes, I say awesome! The Lord also touched the heart of a young 13 year old when he learned I was sick, and he not only prayed for me, he sought the Lord in His Word, and that is not all- he felt he needed to share with me what the Lord put on his heart, so he called our phone on August 23rd, 2010. Now for some reason we did not hear this call so it went to voice-mail- so for months I would replay his message over and over again, so coming from the voice of a youth I would hear:

“Hello Ms. Toni, this is Landon. I just wanted to read you some scriptures that the Lord gave to me for you. It is from Psalm 18: “I love you, O LORD, my strength. The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.

I call to the LORD, who is worthy of praise, and I am saved from my enemies…

He reached down from on high and took hold of me; he drew me out of deep waters. He rescued me from the powerful enemy, from my foes, who were too strong for me. They confronted me in the day of my disaster, but the LORD was my support…

As for God, his way is perfect; the word of the LORD is flawless. He is a shield for all who take refuge in him. For who is God besides the LORD? And who is the Rock except our God? It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect. He makes my feet like the feet of a deer; he enables me to stand on the heights.

He trains my hands for battle; my arms can bend a bow of bronze.

You give me Your shield of victory, and your right hand sustains me; you stoop down to make me great. You broaden the path beneath me, so that my ankles do not turn.

I pursued my enemies and overtook them; I did not turn back till they were destroyed. I crushed them so that they could not rise; they fell beneath my feet. You armed with with strength for the battle; you made my adversaries bow at my feet. You made my enemies turn their back in flight, and I destroyed my foes. They cried for help, but there was no one to save them- to the LORD, but he did not answer…

The LORD lives! Praise be to my Rock! Exalted be God my Savior!”

I am so glad that we missed the call!The recording brought me hope when I was afraid.

The Bible says that our sons and daughters shall prophesy! These words encouraged me tremendously! These were God’s words for me, given to a courageous young man! What if he didn’t call? All I can say is, I am so thankful that he did! Thank you always for that call Landon.

Is there a letter we need to write? Or a call we need to make? Could that be how he trains my hands for battle?!

“…and may God blow our minds by what He wants to do in and through every one of us.”

It is not out of strength that I write. It is out of weakness.

Have you ever felt totally, physically weak and without strength, sick, constantly tired and even in pain?
From this position I write.

Have you ever felt emotionally up and down, like you are trying to walk on ice? This is where I write from.

Have you ever felt that truthfully, the real you, continually looks in a mirror and sees ‘little Much Afraid’ in the reflection? This is who I am- apart from Christ.

That is why I like to sign my name at the end of letters, ‘In Him,’ Toni.

I have learned that I am His little lamb, no matter how old I get, and He is forever, my Good Shepherd. And it is to Him I cling.  I did pray many, many years ago, “Lord, I want to be one of your little lambs that stays close by Your heals, keep me close to You.”
and I think honestly that He has answered that prayer- and even though sometimes the journey is hard, I would like  it to be my continual prayer.

Yes, it is Lord we must cling to – daily.

So I write a book/blog to share with you two years of my coming daily to Him, to Him who is able to accomplish what concerns me each day. Each day I would simply read His word and jot down something that He showed me that day.  So this is a story of the faithfulness of God, this is a story of how great is our God- because He has done great things for us and that is why deep down, even though we aren’t happy about everything, there is  joy. And truly, the joy of the Lord is my only strength.

I was diagnosed with breast cancer in Aug. 2010, one week before beginning a brand new year of home-schooling!
The wedding date for my 2nd born, Jared to his fiance Mandy was Sept. 4th. After all the appointments with the oncologist and surgeon, the first chemo treatment was set for Sept. 9th.

I would like to share a message to me by  Ms. Jill Woods on Sept. 5, 2010: “I really hope you were able to enjoy the wedding… the pictures are absolutely gorgeous… you are a blessed woman and covered with much prayer. May our God, who is mighty to save, carry you and your family through this and use this affliction to draw you ever so close to Him… and blow our minds by what He wants to do in and through you  and  every one of us.”

THIS is why I share my story, because HE DID use this affliction to draw me closer than ever before to Him and He IS doing this work in and through EVERY ONE OF US!

It is my prayer that as I share the past two years of Bible journaling that I had shared on fb, that God would be magnified.

Song: “Let’s forget about ourselves, and magnify the Lord and worship Him.”

I know a man who believes God is who He says He is!

By Faith…

If you want to know faith, you look at people who had faith.

Well, if you want to read a condensed version of many of the men and women of faith in the Bible, you’d read the 11th  chapter of the Book of Hebrews. It’s known as the ‘faith chapter.’

It starts out with the definition of faith, “Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. (Heb. 11:1)

Faith is not for the faint-hearted!

“This is what the ancients were commended for.” (Heb. 11:2)

So, then we get an education of the ancients with faith: “By faith Able was commended as a righteous man. And by faith he still speaks, even though he is dead.” And “by faith Enoch, …before he was taken, was commended as one who pleased God.” (Heb. 4,5)

Heb. 11:6 says, “And without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.”

I like rewards! Everyone does. But the words are hard to read that come in verse 37. I am not sure I see much reward:

“They were stoned, they were sawn in two, were tempted, were slain with the sword. They wandered about in sheepskins and goatskins, being destitute, afflicted, tormented-(vs.38)of whom the world was not worthy…”

Oh my!  The position these ‘heros of faith’ had in the world was pretty low, but we see in God’s  word, is says,  the ‘world was not worthy of them’. They were ‘in position’ to walk by faith! They were men and women in position to trust God, step by step even when they couldn’t see the path-they just kept their eyes on God, they diligently kept seeking Him.

Well, I know a man who believes God to be who He says He is.  I know a man who believes God is “I AM THAT I AM.”

I have watched him through the years. He actually believes that God is his I AM, his, ‘whatever you need’ God. He believes as a child. He believes that the Almighty God the Creator of the Universe is watching over him and his family, that He is their protector and provider, that He is the door.

He believes that if he seeks God diligently, God hears prayer, and prayer changes things. I have watched this man, he has the ‘gift of faith.’

When I’m in confusion about what to do,  and this man has no answers, he says, “Talk to your Father in Heaven.”

When I’m fretful about tomorrow, he would ask, “Do you have everything you need for today?” “Are you OK today?”

When totally devastated and discouraged about closed doors, this man would take a breath and say, “God has something better.”

Through many a dark and cloudy day of unseemingly unanswered prayer, there is not a  morning where he did not get up to meet with his Jesus in word and prayer.

This man has no position in this world to shout about, but his position ‘in Christ’ is steadfast and immovable.

This man is my husband.
In reality, I am the “O ye of little faith’, but God has helped my faith increase- by watching my husband trust God through these 26 years, (and now 30!) no matter what others think, no matter how he feels, no matter what happens- Mike Rypkema trusts God!

I love you Mike Rypkema.  God is pleased with your faith. (We have many rewards!)  I will continue to hold your hand and ‘wait on the LORD’ with you, I just make a lot more noise in my waiting than you do!

Oh, yes, I still make a lot more noise in the waiting! But God just says, “Toni, just keep singin’, just keep singin’! And that is what I will do.

And, Mike Rypkema, with God we can continue to give Him glory as we keep our eyes on Him.

 

I want to write a book on how The Book transformed me!

It is the year 2012. Technology, information, words here, there, and EVERYWHERE! Read books! Have you read this? Have you read that?

You see, there is a Book, that tends to look boring on the outside, but inside it is actually 66 Books! Yes,  (what some would call the ancient writings,) the Bible, is not just black and white letters on a page.

The Bible is THE  very Word of God.  How do I know? Because I have asked God to show me who He is in this Book and He is faithfully revealing Himself more and more every day! (I think that is where the word ‘glorious’ comes from! Discovering truths about God.)

If it is true that ‘the Word of God is living and powerful and sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the division of soul and spirit, and of joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart’, and ‘if there is no creature hidden from His sight, but all things are naked and open to the eyes of Him of whom we must give account’, (Heb.4:11-13) then shouldn’t we be curious to look into this living Book to learn more about who God REALLY is?

I have a dear friend, Andrea, who is a most amazing woman of God. She would not want to hear me say that though! She simply reads her Bible. And she also journals each and every day whatever the Lord showed her on that particular day. And she has been doing this for years and years.  We live in a broken world, and just like you and me, my friend has suffered greatly in this broken world- but you see, she has a Treasure in her ‘earthen vessel, and by daily spending time in this Book, and jotting down some thoughts about it- she is , yes a broken vessel, but Oh,  the light of the treasure that she has within , she is a beaming light for Him!

How do I know that this Book is a LIVING  and POWERFUL BOOK and that I desperately need to be ‘making’ time in my schedule for it? Because my friend has the light of the Lord beaming from her as well as good understanding and wisdom, and also she has the love of the Lord.

So I never could start a Bible Journal. I suppose I ‘could’ have, I just didn’t do it! Not  UNTIL I went though my cancer fight beginning in August of 2012. So I kept it short and simple, and decided to enter it every day on my fb status update!

I would like to put my story and my Bible Journal/fb status! into a book for one purpose: to inspire the reading of God’s Word in all my children and many more besides, and also that we might begin to journal our journey!

Because yes, we live in a broken world, and yes, we will be broken, but how glorious to have a Treasure that dwells in our ‘cracked pots’ and the Word shows us what is Truth. Then we will be able to have lives that ‘trumpet the truth’ for when the enemy comes to attack; “But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellence of the power may be of God and not of us.” 2Cor 4:7

I think there is one more purpose for this book, and that is to inspire others  to finish a project that God has laid on their heart and bring it to completion! “He that began a good work in you will bring in to completion until the day of Jesus Christ.”(Phil 1:6)

What on earth are we thinking! What do you mean ‘God is too busy elsewhere?’!

Have you ever muttered a similar comment from your lips: “God just doesn’t see what’s going on in my life. He is too busy elsewhere.”

Well, it is through a very long time of seemingly un-answered prayer that I KNOW this is NOT TRUE!

And in Isaiah 40:27 God Himself even speaks about this! “Why do you say, O Jacob, and speak, O Israel: ‘My way is hidden from the LORD, and my just claim is passed over by my God’?

God is asking us, “Why do you say that?”

Do you know what He says next? Well, what He, the God of the Universe, the One who hears our cries and even collects our tears in a bottle- these words that He Himself speaks, need to be hidden in our hearts! We need to be able to sing these words throughout the day as a song of truth:

“Have you not known? Have you not heard?
The everlasting God, the LORD,
The Creator of the ends of the earth, Neither faints nor is weary.
His understanding is unsearchable.
He gives power to the weak, and to the those who have no might He increases strength.
Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall,

But those who wait on the LORD Shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles,
They shall run and not be weary,
They shall walk and not faint.'”Isaiah 40:28-31.

I will sing a new song to You, O God…

“Blessed be the LORD my Rock, Who trains my hands for war, and my fingers for battle-” (Ps. 144:1)

“He teaches my hands to make war, So that my arms can bend a bow of bronze…” (Ps. 18:34)

Is this just for the courageous men and woman in military?  NO! I am convinced that this verse is for the children and the women and the men! This verse is for all of us to invest time in playing music on stringed instruments, and music  with  the strings of our vocal chords! I am convinced that in the willingness to worship, even in the most pitiful situations, that God  renews our strength and lifts us up on wings like eagles.

I know that for the most part, we on average do not ‘feel’ like praising God, or even to spend the time to ‘train our fingers’  on the instruments we have in the house. But if we could only understand the power behind the ‘sacrifice of praise.’

So many times in the Bible we read, “To the Chief Musician with my stringed instruments.” Then there is a cry to the Lord, or a word of adoration to Him who can  help.” Yes, NOW is the time to worship.

“He trains my hands for war…” .  For the personal ‘wars’ that we are in, we need to take a breath and put vibration on the strings of our vocal chords, we need to train our fingers on the musical instruments. Why?

Because, then we can ‘bend a bow of bronze’. Because then we can ‘sing a new song to You, O God.'(Ps. 144:9)Through the praise we   have a new attitude about the troubles that surround us.

Lord, help us to consider the song that we are singing. Maybe it is time for a ‘new song.’

May we bring a ‘sacrifice of praise’ to our Lord today, and be ye transformed by the renewing of our mind!  There is power in the song.

We aren’t to drown out our worries and problems with doubt and fear and vices that destroy. We are to be ‘speaking to one another in Psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing and making melody in our hearts to the Lord.  Bring a sacrifice of praise to God even if it just a cry of help- there is so much power in this.  How do I know?

because…

“Though the fig tree may not blossom, Nor fruit be on the vine; though the labor of the olive may fail, and the fields yield no food;… Yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will joy in the God of my salvation.” Hab.3:18

Speaking of powerful words…

Speaking of powerful words- today I write words from a portion of a speech given by my daughter Carolyn on May 3, 2012,(my birthday!) at her Pinning and Lamplighting Ceremony  from Palm Beach Atlantic University, School of Nursing.

I believe these thoughts were God-breathed for me,(on my birthday), for all the parents and guests, for each student and graduate in attendance, AND for each one of us -today- and every day:

…”I would like to say that now that we have our degree, we will not run into problems that we can’t handle, but truthfully no matter the type of degree, the number of years of experience, no matter the location, the support groups, the family, or the friendships, there will always come a time when we just don’t know the answer. It’s inevitable, so I want to encourage you with a little anatomy lesson.

Did you know that there are 47 different structures that make up the human eye that all have a unique function? Did you know that there are 6 extra-ocular muscles, 4 cranial nerves, and 1.2 million nerve fibers in each optic nerve? Did you know that when light waves touch my eye, without even thinking about it I blink to protect them from too much exposure? And when the amount of light changes, my pupillary -light response reacts without a thought so that only the right amount of light is let into my eye.

Did you know that there are four out of twelve cranial nerves that work specifically for the eye so that they can not only allow me to focus on a object and read it but also so that they can move in different directions. There are 9 different structures that all play a specific role in receiving light messages before they even get to the brain! And it is not until those messages get to the occipital lobe of the brain that I can interpret what I am actually seeing.

The eyes receive millions of light waves and messages everyday, but my brain has a specific area that let’s only the important and significant messages through so that the brain doesn’t get over-stimulated.

And did you know that the God who told me to cast all my cares upon Him, and that He will never leave me nor forsake me, that I should be anxious for nothing, was the very One who designed this whole system and hundreds like it so that we can live and move and breathe every second.

And did you know that He didn’t have to lift a finger and didn’t sweat a drop to think of it, He just breathed on one man and He said that He knit us together and formed us in our mother’s womb before you were even a thought in her mind.

And now you tell me,what are you worried about?  What will you be worried about when you come up to those hurdles that are bound to cross you path? I want you to think of your eye and tell me, that your situation, your problem, your worry is TOO big for the GOD who created you and the world you live in to handle.

So class of 2012 let’s go out there and be the best nurses we can be, never forgetting that we have been called to this field by the very One who breathed us into existence.

Congratulations my friends!

Thank you.”

Thank you Carolyn, today I think of the wonders of my eye, and I make my best effort to keep it focused on Him today.

God is good, He used cancer to ‘set me free’

Have you ever had a time in your life where you just can’t understand , not even one little bit, what in the world is going on here?  Do you ever feel like that? Even though you know God is with you and you know God loves you? Have you ever had a time in your life that NOTHING makes sense at all! And you wonder, ‘how in the world could  the Jeremiah 29:11 Scripture fit my life?’:

“For I know the plans I have for you , declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, to give you a future and a hope.”

I have recited that Scripture many times, and believed it then-but then there comes a day. Well, in my life I remember one of those days(but it wasn’t just a day, it was a l-o-n-g- day, and I told the Lord, “Lord, You can see my heart. You can see that I don’t believe this right now for me at all. I don’t believe Your word right now. God, HELP my unbelief. You are my Savior. HELP me believe You.” (yes, the word  ‘help’ is all caps, not anger, but desperation.)

I actually went for a long walk on the Lake Murray Dam here in SC, with a lot of ‘fret’ on my heart and mind and a  lot of ‘fear’ choking me to the point that it was hard to breathe. I remember saying the words, “Lord, I will never get over this. I will never get over this.” But also in the midst of all of my anxiety, I was crying out to Him to Help! to be a ‘present help in time of trouble’.

Now you are probably thinking, “This must have been right after she was diagnosed with cancer.”  No, not at all. We had gone through 2 other crisis BEFORE the cancer!

Anyway, to make a l-o-n-g story short, it was only a few weeks after this walk on the Dam that I suddenly had a large lump, (the size of an egg) on my right breast. Yes, something so large I could ‘see’ it ! Forget about a breast check! What is this thing – was the big question.

You see, from our human perspective it looked like a third crisis, but to God- it was the answer to my ‘HELP me believe You’ prayer.

He put everything in perspective for me. He emptied me.  He broke me. But guess what else He did? He appeared to me and He filled me with His Spirit.  I am not the same person! He changed me.

It all took place after my third chemo treatment, in that story that I told before when the Lord showed me His hands. You see, He still has His scars, they are part of who He is. That is what  makes Jesus, Jesus. And I still have my scars, and they are part of who I am, but they heal because of Him, because He knows all about pain.

He filled me with His love when I was emptied. The prayers of the saints literally picked me up and God turned me around. I write in present tense one minute and past in the next – (that’s because God is continuing all of this even today.)

And He asked me as I continued with the chemo, “Will you believe Me, even in THIS?” And now, I was ready to say, “Yes, Lord, I believe You even in THIS!”

Jesus  – not only is He my Savior. He’s my friend. He’s my ‘present help in times of trouble.'(Ps. 46:1). And …

He healed me, to the uttermost –  and He heals me still, moment by moment as I draw near to Him.

“Jesus take this heart of mine. Make it pure and wholly Thine. Thou hast bled and died for me. I will henceforth live for Thee. Yes, Jesus loves me …”

searching for treasure…”here is a place by Me,” says the Lord, “come”

Today I wrote on my facebook status:

I really think that when you open up the ‘Treasure Box’ of the Word, there is a precious jewel that sits right on top that shines its message of truth even before you start searching for more treasure! Psalm 23 is that most precious jewel to me: ” The Lord is my Shepherd I shall not want…”
You see, because at this time, this sheep feels ‘scattered’. But there is a hidden treasure found in Ezekiel 34:11-16 where our True Shepherd talks to us ‘scattered sheep’! ‘For thus says the Lord GOD: “Indeed I Myself will search for My sheep and seek them out. “As a shepherd seeks out his flock on the day he is among his scattered sheep, so will I seek out My sheep and deliver them from all the places where they were scattered on a cloudy and dark day…(15) “I will feed My flock, and I will make them lie down,” says the LORD GOD. “I will seek what was lost and bring back what was driven away, bind up the broken and strengthen what was sick;” THAT is why the Bible is called the GOOD NEWS!
I am thankful that  the Lord has taught me to read His word as if He is speaking directly to me!. It’s kind of like being troubled about many things and then just plopping my body on the couch, but you see, my Abba is there, sitting in His spot on the couch! (Don’t most father’s have a place on the couch that is theirs?!) Yes,this picture was shared with me many years ago and it strengthens me everyday: it’s as if the Father pats His thigh and says, “come sit next to me”…just like the LORD said to Moses in Ex. 33:21, “Here is a place by Me, ( I do love this picture, because I need to feel His presence, and yes, He, my Father in Heaven, is right HERE saying, “Come, sit next to me.”) What decision do you think I should make?

Well, of course, it makes perfect sense, you might think. But what do we do so often?  Sometimes we just aren’t willing.  But oh, how wonderful, like today when I wanted to hear His words, that He blessed me with hope. My Shepherd told me today in Ez. 34:14, “I will feed them in good pasture, and their fold shall be on the high mountains of Israel. There they shall lie down in a good fold and feed in rich pasture on the mountains of Israel.”

“The Lord is my Shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me  to lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside the still waters. He restores my soul ; He leads me in the paths of righteousness for His name sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear  no evil;  Your  rod and Your staff they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; You annoint my head with oil; My cup runs over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life; and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.” Ps. 23

Perhaps  now,  I’m ready to get up and do the next thing! “Where is my coffee?”

speaking again on the power of words…remembering Robin

Well, on Sept 12, the day after remembering 9/11, I read those words of Billy Graham that he spoke on Sept. 14, 2001.To me, Powerful! I felt the need to write them down and think on them. It was on that same day, my reading was 2 Cor. 4, and it brought back an incredible memory, you see a dear ‘mentor’ of mine many years ago, ( a special friend and homeschool mom and lovely person who just simply ‘loved God with all her heart, soul, mind and strength) had clutched her oxygen tank, announcing that this was her ‘baby’, as she labored to breathe and talk because cancer had invaded her lungs.

Robin said, “Toni, I know what is going on. I understand the whole thing.” She opened her Bible and began reading aloud, without any pause, except to catch her breath, totally focused on the word, 2 ENTIRE CHAPTERS! This was two weeks before she met her Jesus face to face. It was as if I was enveloped for a small amount of time in the Kingdom of God and the power of the word that went out through this weak voice as she read is indescibable!

“Therefore, since we have this ministry, as we have received mercy, we do not lose heart. But we have renounced the hidden things of shame, not walking in craftiness nor handling the word of God deceitfully, but by manifestation of the truth commending ourselves to every man’s conscience in the sight of God. But even if our gospel is veiled, it is veiled to those who are perishing, whose minds the god of this age has blinded, who do not believe, lest the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God should shine on them. For we do not preach ourselves, but Christ Jesus the Lord, and ourselves your bondservants for Jesus’ sake. For it is the God who commanded light to shine out of darkness, who has shone in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.

But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellence of the power may be of God and not of us. We are hard-pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed-always carrying about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our body. For we who live are always delivered to death for Jesus’ sake, that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our mortal flesh. so then death is working in us, but life in you.

And since we have the same spirit of faith, according to what is written, “I believed and therefore I spoke,” we also believe and therefore speak, knowing that He who raised up the Lord Jesus will also raise us up with Jesus, and will present us with you. For all things are for your sakes, that grace, having spread through the many, may cause thanksgiving to abound to the glory of God.

Therefore we do not lose heart. Even though our outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being renewed day by day. For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory, while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. for the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal.

5. For we know that if our earthly house, this tent, is destroyed, we have a building from God, a house not made with hands, eternal in the heavens. For in this we groan, earnestly desiring to be clothed with our habitation which is from heaven, if indeed, having been clothed, we shall not be found naked. For we who are in this tent groan, being burdened, not because we want to be unclothed, but further clothed, that mortality may be swallowed up by life. Now He who has prepared us for this very thing is God, who also has given us the Spirit as a guarantee.

So we are always confident, knowing that while we are at home in the body we are absent from the Lord. For we walk by faith, not by sight. We are confident, yes, well pleased rather to be absent from the body and to be present with the lord.

Therefore we make it our aim, whether present or absent, to be well pleasing to Him.

For we must all appear before the judgement seat of Christ, that each one may receive the things done in the body, according to what he has done, whether good or bad. Knowing, therefore, the terror of the Lord, we persuade men; but we are well known to God…”

Robin Lawrence thank you for your life that continues to live each and every day in mine. I hope my house is next door to yours when I get to heaven!