Writing again to the girls, for ‘now and again’ all because a very special lady, Jenny Sorenson, was your mom!
So girls, the story of the journey your mom and I took in the Song of Songs is far from over, but believe me, when I share another letter with you, (and possibly two) I think you might also agree that this is quite possibly, “the Song of all songs!” But until then, I want to share with you some letters I wrote in my blog, soliciting prayer for your mom and getting her story out. No, I didn’t have a lot of readers, but I can tell you that the readers that I did have were ‘champions in prayer’ for her, and your mama’s story gave them ‘sufficient courage’ to face whatever was going on in their life-and you can believe me- we all did a LOT LESS COMPLAINING about anything! Your mom was amazing!
Here is a letter I wrote on tonirypkema.wordpress.com on Sept 16, 2013 called, “This will turn out for my deliverance through your prayer:” ( I hope you always know that many were praying, even across the states, along with your family and your church!)
Can I gather as many brothers and sisters in the Lord together at this time to pray for my friend Jenny? I know there is so much going on, and we have a lot of directions we are going in, but please can I persuade you to pray for my friend who is in room 609 at the hospital at this time. You see, Jenny is paralyzed from the neck down. But this did not happen yesterday.
Still a mystery over the causes of her present state, more than 5 years ago, Jenny found herself overnight, paralyzed. We can spend a lot of time talking about how extremely difficult EVERYTHING became after this moment, (more than 5 years ago!),not only for herself, but her three girls and her husband. But at this time, I would like to share with you her words to me today, as she is now in the hospital because of difficulties finding 24 hr. home-health care nurses for her care.
Jenny said to me today, “I know that all the delay is for God’s purpose. He is going to do something amazing. I believe God is going to heal me and I am going to walk out of this hospital!”
Jenny believes in her heart that God has told her that He is going to heal her and she will walk again!
Here’s the part that includes you and me – I believe we are to believe with her and to pray. We read today words from Philippians that say Jenny’s heart,
“Yes, and I will rejoice, for I know that this will turn out for my deliverance through your prayers and the provision of the Spirit of Jesus Christ, according to my earnest expectation and hope, that I will not be put to shame in anything, but that with all boldness, Christ will even now, as always, be exalted in my body…” Phil1:18-20.
Other scripture confirmed her heart to me just today as well,
Zechariah 9:12, “Return to the stronghold, O prisoners who have the hope; This very day I am declaring that I will restore double to you.” And Zechariah 10:12, “And I will strengthen them in the LORD, And in His name they will walk.”
Jenny has always believed that God would heal her. Her muscle tone should have atrophied, but it has not. She has more faith than anyone you have ever met.
Just like in the day of Esther, I feel we need to rally around Jenny’s hope and confidence that God will do this. Shall we pray:
“Lord God, in the name of Jesus we come and we pray for Jenny. We thank you for giving her the gift of faith in believing You especially at this time for healing of her body. There is nothing that is impossible with You dear Lord. We have read of so many testimonies from the Bible of healing and we ask together with like minds that You, who are all power and might, would heal our sister in You.Have mercy Lord, and bless Jenny with healing. In Jesus name, Amen.”
It is time for our faith to increase, thank you for joining and praying for Jenny. Her eyes are on the Lord and her expectation is in Him and Him alone. Thank you so much for joining me in prayer for my friend.
(Alli, Jordan, and Sami, I just wanted you to have this for ‘now and again’ just so you know.)
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(Here is another entry to my blog): “Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.” John 14:27. This is the peace that Jesus can give.
my friend Jenny, … she has this peace.
Though unexpectedly, in one day 5 1/2 years ago, for some unknown reason, (not sure exact causes, virus of the spine, etc.) caused paralysis from the neck down, though having a tracheotomy and needing help with breathing, thus making communication difficult, though now, unable to be home, around her family and her girls, because of need of a new home health care rotation and provision for it, has been in a hospital for 9 weeks, and because of that, (being in a hospital) now has issues with excess fluids from simply being in a hospital bed had to be rushed to ICU for a procedure to clear out the fluids, not to mention that fact that if she is cold, she cannot pull a blanket up, or if she is thirsty she cannot lift and take sip of water to her lips.DESPITE ALL OF THAT,
Jenny has the peace of God. She has a ‘peace of God, which surpasses all understanding’ (Phil 4:7).
And especially, which surpasses all my understanding and the nurses and even the social workers who have been unable to help her to get home. They all make comments like, “I don’t know how she does it?” or “I almost broke out in tears, until I saw how well she is taking everything…”
Well, I know that it is God in her. But she doesn’t just ‘know’ God, she lives in His presence. It is witnessing, living proof of the verse, “His grace is sufficient, for His strength is made perfect in weakness.” (2 Corinthians 12:9). How else could Jenny feel in her heart and be able to confide in me, in true sincerity,”I consider it a privilege that God would choose me for this trial.” What is faith? What is hope? Jenny Sorensen!
Many of us know the story where Martha was having Jesus over and others, and she was busy and getting everything together, working hard; she was ‘distracted with much serving’ (Luke 10:40), and she approached Jesus and said, “Lord, do You not care that my sister has left me to serve alone? Therefore tell her to help me.” And Jesus answered and said to her, “Martha, Martha, you are worried and troubled about many things. But one thing is needed, and Mary has chosen that good part, which will not be taken away from her.” Luke 10:42.
You see, Jenny is not busy, she is not bitter, NO – Jenny is better, she made the choice to be ‘with the Lord’ and He is ‘with her’.So much has been taken away from Jenny, however, she has chosen to remain at the feet of Jesus and it will ‘not be taken away from her.’ God is showing me so much gentleness, as well. Jenny IS Phil 4:5: “Let your gentleness be known to all men. The Lord is at hand.” Gentleness is not an easy quality, especially when things aren’t going our way or when we need other people’s help. We are not always gentle. I have prayed for years, “Lord, help me be gentle! Help me be gentle in my responses with my kids and with my husband.” I am not ‘naturally’ gentle. Jenny is teaching me how to be gentle by her witness.
Jenny has more reason than most, to be anxious, but she is not. Oh, she has anxious thoughts, and I have seen tears roll from her eyes when she prays about her doubts, but then her next breath is faith! This is His grace sufficient that others have prayed for her, “Lord, give her an abundance of grace.” His grace IS sufficient. I can ‘see’ it in Jenny! When I ask, “Jenny, what can I do to help you get out of the hospital? Do you want me to make some calls, etc.” Jenny’s reply, “Just pray.”
However, I must let the gentleness, the patience, the hope, the faith, the love that comes from this woman, be known to you! Her voice is quiet, it is gentle, and it is always expecting the work of the Lord! She always sees the Lord working for good even when things seem to be getting worse – from her perspective, she is encouraged and feels God is bringing her closer and closer to healing. A true witness lives a life that points to God. That’s why I share Jenny with you, that we might live lives that give God glory as well.
All I can say is, “Dear Lord, Thank you for Jenny, and her willingness to wait on You and to trust You and hope in You. Have mercy on her Lord Jesus and heal her so she can walk right out of that hospital, never to need that chair again. And thank You for using her life to ‘spread Your grace through the many, causing thanksgiving to abound to the glory of God!’ We love You and thank You, in Jesus’ name, Alleluiah, Amen!” * * * * *
For you, her precious girls, for ‘now and again’, just so you know, forever, – Jenny was loved and still inspires so many of us each and every day. Yes, and this special lady, she was your mom! And, oh, how she loved her girls!
Psalm 62:1, 5: “Truly my soul silently waits for God; From Him comes my salvation… My soul, wait silently for God alone, For my expectation is from Him, He only is my rock and my salvation; …”
I am so sorry that you have to hurt and miss her so. Just know I will never cease to pray for each of you, each and every day – because God put your mama in my heart and you were in hers, so, now, you are in mine as well. Jesus loves you so very much.
Much love, in Him, Toni Rypkema.