“…was blind, but now I see.”

There is still so much blur, but today there is some focus, focus on a Table prepared just for me…

You’ve prepared a Table, and I’ve come at last, The broken bread, the poured out wine, were just memories of the past.

But today I’ve come, to the Table again, God, You know me, You’ve watched, I’ve broken Your heart, and not only Yours – Can I make a new start?

Which way am I going? Do I even know its end? It’s the end of ‘not caring’ – God help me care,  help me bend.

Revive me again, O Lord, You’re in my heart, but I’ve quenched Your great Spirit, forgive me, don’t depart.

I need you like all the old songs sing, like the flower needs the rain, refresh me again-

You forgive, You forgive,  You forgive evermore, take my hard heart and make it soft as before.

For You are the Potter, and I am the clay, mold me and break me and make me a new- that I would once more give wholehearted Praise, in simplicity, to You.

To You alone, I give You Praise, revive me O LORD and change my ways.

That my feet, that my hands, that my lips that speak, would give glory to You, Oh, God – my flesh is so weak –

So I ask from my heart at Your Table today, revive me again, make my spirit willing, time…

and time…


Be my Savior, forgive all my sin, and may Your face shine upon me, yes, shine upon me, forever – forever and again.

Thank you for preparing this Table for me,  even in the presence of all my enemies, but today I come and I have come at last, what took me so long, Your love is so steadfast!

I see Your sacrifice was made just for me, I love You Lord Jesus. Thank You for First loving me.

In Jesus name, Amen.

 “He prepares a Table before me in the presence of my enemies. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord FOREVER!” (Psalm 23). We ‘know’ the Table. We’ve been lied to by the enemy of God to think that this Table is just ‘RELIGION’, but so far from the truth is that! This Table is POWER! This Table is RELATIONSHIP! This Table is FORGIVENESS and HEALING! This Table is the LOVE that we so much desire. This Table brings forth LIFE and ADOPTION! Come to the Table, that you know is there. But you forgot it was set just for you…just for you, today. Don’t just ‘think about it’ with your head – come and sit and ‘Be Still and Know’ that God has paid your debt in full and Oh, He loves you so! Come to His Table, it’s not just for heaven, ‘the house of the LORD’, Oh NO, it’s for now, come and see and receive His great love and find that you are His child to dwell in His house for today and for all the tomorrows. He is your Father, forever and today. Come to Him, He’s been waiting…(and we pray!)

So, you believe in science and logic?…

Of course we believe in science and logic! Education is important in this day! True science is observable, repeatable, and demonstrate- able! Where did the science and logic come from? I have no words, but I love the questions that God Himself asks, can science and logic answer these: (Job 38).

“Where were you when I laid the foundations of the earth? Tell me if you have understanding. Who determined it’s measurements? Surely you know! Or who stretched the line upon it? To what were its foundations fastened? Or who laid it’s cornerstone, when the morning stars sang together,…” (Job 38:4-7).

“Or who shut in the sea with doors, when it burst forth and issued from the womb; when I made the clouds it’s garment… When I fixed My limit for it, and set bars and doors; when I said,’This far you may come, but no farther, and here your proud waves must stop!'( (Job 38:8-11).

People need faith to believe in Science! People need faith to believe in God. All I know, is, if this is an important test, we best do our own homework and study on the issue!
You see, when ‘science’ and ‘logic’ and even study in ‘eastern religion’ couldn’t free me from destroying myself with an eating disorder and an ‘impulsive-compulsive’ temperament that was ‘out of control’- my life was unmanageable and I couldn’t be free of deep anger inside that continually brought me down- I desperately cried out to God.

I didn’t deserve His ear. I didn’t do anything to deserve His help. But God gave me His ear. You see, True science is observable, well, the science of faith in God is OBSERVABLE!
And logic? I discovered logic: “The LORD gives wisdom and from His mouth come knowledge and understanding. (Prov. 2:6).
But more than even that, He gave me His Spirit when I asked Him to come into my life. He forgave all my junk, and He washed all the past away- like a blank tape- it was gone, I was made new!
Ps 116: 1,2 say it all -“I LOVE the LORD, because He has heard My voice and my supplications. Because He inclined His ear to me, Therefore I will call upon Him as long as I live…”

The science and logic of faith in God? Unmistaken-ly POWERFUL!

It all comes from God! He has more questions:

>Have you commanded the morning since your days began, And caused the dawn to know its place, That it might take hold of the ends of the earth, And the wicked be shaken out of it?…”Job 38:12,13.

“Have you entered the springs of the sea? Or have you walked in search of the depths? Have the gates of death been revealed to you? Or have you seen the doors of the shadow of death?  Have you comprehended the breadth of the earth? Tell Me, if you know all this.”Job 38:16,17.

All I know is, I feel as if I have literally seen the ‘doors of the shadow of death’, and when they opened and I saw God’s ‘nail pierced ‘ hands , I knew – I’ve got to let others know the good news:
“Without faith it’s impossible to please God, and if you want to come to Him, you must believe He exists, and He rewards all those who seek Him”( a paraphrase of Hebrews 11:6).

Do you want the prize? Use logic and understand that all science originated in Him. Believe in God through the Lord Jesus Christ and experience power to overcome!

“Then the LORD answered Job out of the whirlwind, and said; “Now prepare yourself like a man; I will question you, and you shall answer Me… “Have you an arm like God? Or can you thunder with a voice like His?…Job 40:6,7).

I’m thinking after reading this question, that “the fear of The Lord is the beginning of wisdom!” Today is a day where I pray that man begins to use ‘logic’ to BELIEVE GOD and trust IN HIM! That is my prayer.

“Rescue the Perishing”

Fanny Crosby penned a hymn with this title. Fanny suffered blindness, Fanny suffered the loss of a child, Fanny didn’t have eyes to see, but she saw…she saw plenty- perhaps so much more than so many of us will ever see- Fanny saw through eyes of faith, and she obviously was bursting forth with thought and so…thankfully for our good, she wrote.

Do you find yourself praying?Yet at times, not praying at all! We try praying for ourselves, praying for our families, praying for our neighbors, praying for our communities, praying for the nations, but what words are we praying? Today, I discovered a treasure to help me pray and keep it simple – yes words written in 1869, but today, each word suits you and me just fine. I will write the last verse first and the first verse last, of this poor blind woman’s hymn, yet they instruct and their richness even gives us words to pray to, “Rescue the Perishing!”

“Rescue the perishing, Duty demands it, strength for thy labor the Lord will provide; Back to the narrow way Patiently win them, Tell the poor wand’rer A Savior has died.
Rescue the perishing, Care for the dying; Jesus is merciful, Jesus will save.”

The narrow way, the narrow way! It’s been talked of all wrong, the words have been twisted, but God’s word ‘is sure making wise the simple; His words are ‘perfect converting the soul’, can’t the hurting and dying world see that the narrow way, the word of the Lord ‘enlightens the eyes’ (Ps. 19: 7-9). “Lord, help us have strength to do what you say, and Lord may we comfort and lead the ‘poor wanderer’ back to the ‘narrow way!’

Verse 3 in this hymn spells the word ‘hope’ for me: “Down in the human heart, Crushed by the tempter, Feelings lie buried That grace can restore; Touched by a loving heart, Wakened by kindness, Chords that are broken Will vibrate once more.”
Rescue the perishing, Care for the dying; Jesus is merciful, Jesus will save.

As we pray and seek God’s face, may we first believe God will do it, He will restore! Can He use us even to be a loving heart to touch the broken that they are ‘wakened by kindness’. We believe that ‘chords that are broken will vibrate once more!’
“Yes, Lord, we believe You will do it, we have faith to see that ‘the chords that are broken will vibrate once more!”

Verse 2 of the hymn is most powerful of all, it states it exactly as it is for us all:
“Tho’ they are slighting Him,
Still He is waiting, Waiting the penitent child to receive; Plead with them earnestly, Plead with them gently, He will forgive, If they only believe.”

“Rescue the perishing, Care for the dying, Snatch them in pity from sin and the grave; Weep o’er the erring one, Lift up the fallen, Tell them of Jesus, the mighty to save.”

How sweet for today, I feel I have my marching orders from this dear old woman from years gone by, who couldn’t see a thing with her eyes, but the eyes of faith she had, so we’d be well off, just like the Lord said, to once in a while, ‘speak in a hymn’. It really helps me today to know how to pray!
“Teach us to pray, dear Lord. And thanks for the hymns that help us. They help give us words, they even help us to see it! To think that a broken, tiny blind woman would pen such words of great richness that open our eyes of understanding and to give us words to pray for the perishing!
We have all been guilty Lord of ‘slighting You’ yet You wait for us still. You wait for Your child to come and receive all of the love and the grace You give. You forgive, You forgive, so big… You forgive. There is none like You Lord, Your grace can restore! God we plead for ourselves, we plead for our families, we plead for the people that live next door, we pray for our communities, O God restore, may ‘chords that are broken vibrate once more!’ ‘Rescue the perishing! Care for the dying; Jesus be merciful, Jesus…save.” in Jesus name, Amen.

Today, I tell part of my cancer story…

The fact that this is Breast Cancer Awareness Month and there is a lot of discussion about it, I would like to share a little part of my ‘cancer story’. I am 4 years out now and I am very thankful for every breath God allows me to take. I just pray that each day God gives me He fills me with His love and that He is my vision always-“For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.”

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Why do I write the things I write? Why do I write at all?

Well, I didn’t begin to write until after the cancer. But there is purpose in the words, even if they are only for me. The words are written to point to the loving, gracious, all patient hand of God. To be reminded of His presence in everything.Even great darkness.

My life was rudely interrupted by this very large mass on my right breast that seemed to appear out of nowhere. Only to find out that this size tumor can take up to 10 years to get that big. Wow, I guess that took me out the the early detection category. Anyway, my church family, (I love the fact the the church is the people!) My church family from everywhere started praying for me and reaching out during this time.  I truly believe that I was carried…

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What if I didn’t bring my guitar that day?

“What if I didn’t bring my guitar on that day?” It’s ‘outside the box’ to bring a guitar in the hospital, but God had me bring it often, with a few particular songs to sing, every time I visited Jenny -whether at home or in the hospital. We all understand when professional musicians carry their instruments to ‘scheduled’ performances, and oh how we enjoy those moments when we are brought together for those monumental performances-yet, God,

the Great Conductor orchestrates ‘monumental moments’ when we yield to His leading. I must record this moment in that God wants me to remember the very last song we sang…

First, the ‘we’- Jenny and myself and my friend Gail and a man from Jenny’s church. Second, ‘the moment – Jenny, the friend God gave me to help lift my ‘pity-ful’ thoughts out of the ash heap to soar in a sky of blue. Yes, the friend who suffered so many great losses, even the loss and ability to feel or move any muscle below her neck for close to 6 years. Yes – Jenny was paralyzed within a 24 hour period from some unknown ‘virus’ at the age of 35, completely from the neck down!

(Take a moment and imagine losing the feeling and ability to move anything below your neck for even one day, let alone almost 6 years!) Anyway, back to the moment- God knew – but we didn’t- that this moment in time was to be our last day to talk and sing. This moment after being in the hospital almost 3months, separated from her home and her loved ones so much of the time, this young 40 year old woman beamed with joy when I pulled out my ‘baby Taylor’ to play the hymn, “My Jesus, I Love Thee.”

This was no performance to be remembered for perfection, but this was a moment of precious and purest of praises. None of us knew this would be the last song. But God did. And unless I write this down today and record this moment, it might be forgotten, but God wants me to remember…

He wants me to remember so I can be reminded forever that He is in control. He is the Great Conductor. God knew that about 15 hours later, Jenny would suffer lack of oxygen and go into a coma for a short time, before going on home to Him. God’s the only One who knew, but we can know the song…we can know the song that she had on her mind, because we sang it together on that day, and God was with us because He inhabits pure praise:

“My Jesus I love Thee; I know Thou art mine. for Thee all the follies of sin I resign. My gracious Redeemer, My Savior art Thou. If ever I loved Thee, My Jesus, ’tis now. (William R. Featherston)

To think that the ‘Great Conductor’ had Jenny and I reading together the last few visits in the Song of Songs, the Song of Solomon where we both discovered just how great His love is for us. We sang the words, “I know Thou art mine” in a most deep and rich way. Like two school girls that had been ‘kissed’ by Jesus:
“Behold, you are fair, my love! Behold you are fair! You have dove’s eyes…” (Song of Sol. 1:15). ”
We had read also, “The voice of my beloved! Behold He comes leaping upon the mountains, skipping upon the hills…behold He stands behind our wall; He is looking through the windows, Gazing through the lattice. My beloved spoke to me: “Rise up, my love,my fair one, And come away. For lo,

the winter is past, The rain is over and gone. the flowers appear on the earth; the time of singing has come…” (Song of Sol 2:8-10).

We sang on that monumental day: “I love Thee, Because Thou hast first loved me, And purchased my pardon On Calvary’s tree. I love Thee for wearing the thorns on Thy brow, If ever I loved Thee, My Jesus, tis now.”

Jenny and I, through our time together were touched by the Lord. He knows about our thorns. He told us so, “Like a lily among thorns, So is my love among the daughters.” (Song of Sol 2:1). So we sang with such depth of meaning the words, “I love Thee for wearing the thorns on Thy brow,...” and we meant every word as we sang, “If ever I loved Thee, My Jesus,tis now.”

These were not just words, they were spirit and we were worshiping our Lord in Spirit and in Truth and He was with us on that monumental day. He inhabited that amazing praise!

As time goes by, I don’t want to forget, so write I will, and when I sing this hymn, I always remember this day. The next two verses are so amazing, in that of all the hymns, this is the one that God chose for me to bring. God is in control, if you aren’t sure, read these words aloud as well, as we sang aloud that precious day:

“I’ll love Thee in life, I will love Thee in death. And praise Thee as long as Thou lendest me breath; And say when the death dew lies cold on my brow, “If ever I loved Thee, My Jesus ’tis now.” Only God knew that the last breaths were approaching.

But this brings me the greatest of comfort, that God chose this song, because I will always wonder, “Lord, was Jenny hearing this song in her coma? So much mystery that only You know, Lord.”

But here are the words of the last verse we sang, so amazing, beyond glorious -truly God’s on the Throne: “In mansions of glory And endless delight, I’ll ever adore Thee In heaven so bright. I’ll sing with the glittering crown on my brow, “If ever I loved Thee, My Jesus, ’tis now.”

I’m thankful that God had me bring my guitar that day, I’m thankful for the song He chose. TO think that He was willing to wear that crown of thorns so we could wear a ‘glittering crown on our brows’! And when we get there, we will lay those crowns down at the feet of Him who loves us so.

So, if God has you go ‘outside the box’ and grab that hymn book, psalm, or even to grab that guitar ,to bring to someone whose been broken,  you might just witness, as I did that day, a monumental moment that you will  record in the journal of your heart, that God supernaturally heals you all, with His presence – you all have joy, no matter what happened or is going to transpire, God has a plan, and it’s something we can hold on to!

Lord, I miss Jenny so much. But I thank You that she is whole and alive forevermore. Soon and very soon we will be together again. Thank You for her life. Thank You for Yours! “If ever I loved Thee, My Jesus, ’tis now.”

Kinda like visiting Owl at Pooh’s Corner…

I often feel, when I open my little book ‘Beside Still Waters’ by CH Spurgeon, as if I am Christopher Robin from Pooh Corner visiting Owl. Oh yes,
He makes me think and ask questions to myself… “No Smell of Fire.” (Daniel 3:27), the title leads, then he writes, “When you cherish Christ, the things of the world are of little value, and their loss is not heavily felt.”
Then I think, ‘cherish?’, that is a word that puts me at a wedding,at the moment of the vows: “to love and to cherish”. Spurgeon starts his thought with, “When you cherish Christ…” and he spurs me to ask myself,

“Do I cherish Christ?” for better, for worse, in sickness and in health, for richer or poorer? Can I? Do I…cherish Christ?… as long as I live? But then it hits me – Death will never part us, the Lord and myself. He is mine – today, tomorrow and forever. So, ‘Owl’, I mean “Spurgeon continues:
“When you cherish Christ, the things of the world are of little value, and their loss is not heavily felt. If you feel your losses and if your trials are so ponderous that Christ’s love cannot lift you from the dust, then you have made too much of the world and too little of Him.”

I never really thought of an ‘owl’ with a tough ‘kick’ but Spurgeon shows me otherwise! But, it is a gentle kick, so I keep reading, “I see a pair of balances. I see on one scale the loss…, but I perceive on the other scale the great love of Christ. Now we will see which weighs the most. If Jesus lifts the light affliction, all is well, but if the trouble outweighs Jesus, then it is indeed ill for us.” (Spurgeon, beside Still Waters, pg. 161).

OK, the owl can kick: “If you are so depressed by your trials that you cannot rejoice, even though your name is written in heaven, then I think you do not love Jesus as you should.”

“Get delightful thoughts of Him, and you will feel as if you lost a pebble but preserved a diamond. If you have a high sense of your Master’s preciousness, you will rejoice in the deepest distress. The sweet love of Christ, when placed on the deepest wound the soul can ever know, heals at once.”

Some words are simply worth writing again: “The sweet love of Christ, when placed on the deepest wound the soul can ever know, heals at once.”

God uses people, by filling them with His spirit, giving them spiritual wisdom, thus ‘opening their mouth with good things’ to be ‘a present help in times of trouble- just as Owl was to Christopher Robin, Spurgeon is to me. So God, gave this man, this ‘owl on Pooh’s corner’ so to speak, a prayer of healing written many years ago. Printed in some small book, that God would have me open on this particular day- Oh the wisdom of God!…shall we pray a prayer that heals?

Do we desire healing? Or do we want to continue with our hands hanging down? May we choose this day to not lose heart but to pray: “Jesus, Jesus, Jesus. Be within us, and we will make no choice of situations. Put us in Nebuchadnezzar’s furnace (Daniel 3:20); if Jesus walks the glowing coals as a companion, the fire will have no power, the hairs of our heads will not be singed, our garments will not be affected, and even the smell of fire will not be on them ” (Dan. 3:27).

I will choose to pray and not to lose heart. I will choose to remember that Jesus ‘walks the glowing coals’ of the fire that God has allowed us to be put in. That He is a companion, a very present help and that ‘the fire has no power and the hairs of our heads will not be singed…’you and I can rejoice’ even ‘in the deepest distress’ when we choose to take hold of faith.

“Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?…Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” (Romans 8:35-39).

“Do you take this Man to love and to cherish, for all of eternity?

“I do! I do! I cherish my Lord. His love makes me sing:
“Jesus Only You. Jesus only You! That is where I find my joy – Jesus only You.
You say You love me. You never change. Say You won’t leave me, You’re always the same.
You say You see me, and You hear all my prayers… Jesus Only You!” (Song by Toni Rypkema)(And if I had any tech sense I would know how to share it with you on some ukelele strings! Until then,… Jesus Only You!)

So in conclusion: I left Pooh’s corner with my visit with Owl – changed and turned around from when I came! Thank you Jesus for your word and for wise old ‘owls’ who wrote poems and comforting words so many years ago, just for me…just for me!

“He makes me to lie down…”

First of all, the words, “He makes me,” make me think that I did not volunteer to lie down, even though they were green pastures that He had led me to!

“He makes me…” makes me think of some kind of struggle going on, much like trying to get a toddler to take some medicine when sick.

“He makes me…”

And then I think, “who is He?” And I remember, He is my Good Shepherd.The One that knows what is best for me, the One that has said,

“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.” (Jer. 29:11.) And then I remember, that ‘this is the work of God, that you believe…’ (John 6 somewhere). Am I really believing? Am I believing Him? Am I really giving Him the place to be my Shepherd or am I listening to the thinking of the times: “You deserve a break today”, or “Have it your way”, or “I’m entitled to more.” or “I have my rights!”

Oh, what a struggle.

God is speaking to my heart, “Toni, lay down your rights,…surrender it all to Me. That is what I have done, in surrendering to My Father. Can you pray as I did, ‘Not my will, but Yours be done’ concerning this situation?”

“He makes me to lie down…” (Psalm 23:2).

Can I really say with a whole heart of meaning and truth, “I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me…” (Gal 2:20). Can I really ‘die to myself and my independent thoughts and surrender to His hand to ‘make me lie down’ and trust and wait on Him in full surrender?

A yielding needs to take place in my heart.

So… ‘He makes me…’remember a hymn that I yearn to be true to but am so often just singing words. A hymn that I sing in ‘spirit’, but so many times – not ‘in truth’. And God, so desires ‘true worshipers who will worship Him in ‘spirit and truth. (John 4:23). He knows my struggle, but today,

He is ‘making’ me to…”lie down” to lay down my rights, to give up my pride, to surrender…all:
“All to Jesus I surrender, All to Him I freely give; I will ever love and trust Him, In His presence daily live./ I surrender all, I surrender all, All to Thee my blessed Savior, I surrender all.

All to Jesus I surrender, Humbly at His feet I bow, Worldly pleasures all forsaken, Take me Jesus, take me now./ I surrender all, I surrender all. All to Thee my blessed Savior, I surrender all.

All to Jesus I surrender, Make me Savior wholly Thine; Let me feel the Holy Spirit, Truly know that Thou art mine./ I surrender all, I surrender all. All to Thee my blessed Savior, I surrender all.

All to Jesus I surrender, Lord, I give myself to Thee. Fill me with Thy love and power; Let Thy blessings fall on me. / I surrender all. I surrender all. All to Thee my blessed Savior, I surrender all.”

Do I believe? YES… It is ‘the Lord that is my Shepherd. When I get my eyes offf the other sheep and get them on HIM –  I have everything that I need. I can breath again… He makes me to lie down in green pastures’ (Ps. 23:1,2), because ‘He knows that the plans that He has for me are plans of peace and not of evil, to give me a hope and a future’.(Jer. 29:11).

I struggled to believe this when my eyes were on the situation, but when I ‘looked to the hills from whence comes my help’, I then have faith in Him.

I am learning and growing in what this powerful verse means: ‘I have been crucified with Christ: and I myself no longer live, but Christ lives in me. And the real life I now have within this body is a result of me trusting in the Son of God’ (no matter what happens)’ knowing that He loves me and gave Himself for me’. (Gal.2:20).

And because ‘He loved me and gave Himself for me’…I surrender all – and find myself in pastures of green by still waters! O God, thank you for ‘making me to lie down…’ “I surrender all!”

“If ‘prayer’ were a hammer, and ‘the need’ a nail?…

“If prayer was a hammer, I’d hammer in the morning!…”No more ‘tack hammer ‘ prayers, it’s time to hammer those needs right to the Lord who is able to do ‘exceeding abundantly more than we ask or think!

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“If ‘prayer’ were a hammer, and ‘the need’ a nail; does your prayer life look like a little ‘tack hammer’ tapping a little nail in some dry wall?”

These aren’t my words, and they didn’t come from a well known pastor or any pastor for that matter, these words came from an intern at a church who was given a Sunday morning service to talk about ‘persevering in prayer’.

This was July 23, 2012, when I heard this young man speak, and it was an unforgettable service, so I took notes. “Thank you Thor for a most inspiring message, I am just sorry  that I did not write down more!”

This young man had lived 3 years in S. Korea doing his studies at the University there. He went on to tell a sanctuary filled mostly with young American students, that at 5am AND 7am the University in S. Korea…

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“You will be set free.”

“You will be set free. Believe and sing a new song to Me.” God speaks.

“Why do You want a new song?” I wonder aloud in my wrestling heart as I look at Psalm 96 as just words on the page. Then caught by surprise, He answered…
“My child, I want the song to come from you. I want the song that you sing to come from the mind of your heart and the depth of your soul – to be for Me. That is the new song, and it is THAT song that will set you free. Let it all go, all the junk that keeps brewing, all the thoughts that your thinking, pour out your heart and all that’s inside. I’m here to listen and long to hear your voice.”

He speaks even more: “Don’t you see that the song that you’re singing will change it’s tone, as I ‘tune your heart to sing of My grace.’ From a minor key to a major one. Yes, I seek you, not the other way around! I have sought you My child – to lift you off this ground.
Sing a new song! No more ‘wandering from the throne of God.’ I AM here to rescue you from the dangers of your mind – sing a new song, but this time of My blood. Sing ‘nothing but the blood of Jesus’, sing it true and you will discover…”

“But there’s nothing new about that ol’ song.”

“Oh, yes, it’s new – when it comes from…you.” Sing it my child. Sing a’new-old’ song then: “Prone to wander, Lord I feel it. Prone to leave the God I love. Here’s my heart Lord, take and seal it – seal it for Thy courts above.”

“I can’t do it, You see it all.”

“Don’t you see, that when the song comes from you – from all that you are, of which I can see – but the song, which is new, which finally comes flowing, releasing all those dark thoughts from the tight grip of your heart, and you realize your hand in not empty at all, but it holds the key…that sets you free, when you worship Me.”

“I love you so much my child. Oh, how I love to hear your voice. I can’t hear the noise, but I can hear the praise. I’ve been waiting so long to lift you ‘like wings of eagles’ and to bring you a ‘peace like a river’ and to satisfy the thirst and fill your hungry soul. Sing Me a new song my child, make Me your King and you will discover you’ve had the key all along…when you finally take a breath to sing that new song!”

“Why are these words so difficult, so hard? I will say them, I will. I will agree with You Lord.”

“Here’s my song Lord, I come to You, even when I’m not sure what to do.  ‘Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it. Prone to leave the God I love. Take my heart Lord. Take a seal it. Seal it for Thy throne above.'”

Could it be true?  I hear the Lord weeping. “Jesus wept.”  We all know that word,  but this time it’s for me, this word is for only  me.

Through His weeping, He speaks,” How I love your voice… “How I love your voice!”
Let me see your countenance, Let me hear your voice. For your voice is sweet and your countenance is lovely.” (Song of Solomon 2:14)
“The LORD looks from heaven; He sees all the sons of men. From the place of His habitation He looks on all the inhabitants of the earth; He fashions their hearts individually; He considers all their works.”(Psalm 33:13-15).

“Sing to Him a new song…” Ps. 33:3! (Exclamation point, mine!) You will be set free, even if the new song is simply, “Yes, Jesus loves me. Yes, Jesus loves me. Yes, Jesus loves me, the Bible tells me so.”

Speaking about Jesus Paid It All…

The Bible says, ‘don’t be drunk with wine, in which is excessiveness and foolishness, but be filled with the Spirit, speaking to one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs.’ (Eph. 5:19).
Wine is a man made pleasure, but the Spirit offers to enrapture us in the power and love of God as we remind ourselves of the truths of God’s Word.
The verse does continue, however, and mention ‘singing and making melody in your hearts to the Lord.’ But we are told to be filled with the Spirit and ‘speak’ in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs.

Do we really spend time ‘speaking together in Hymns?’
All I know is, now that I have been thinking about the words to the hymns, I want to talk about them.

So, thinking on the first verse of the familiar hymn, Jesus Paid it All, I didn’t get very far when I began to think of the first five words: “I hear the Savior say, …” and then I began to wonder, “Do I hear the Savior say anything?”
In the course of the day, do I hear what the Savior says? First thing in the morning, am I hearing ANYTHING the Savior has to say? And what about when everything is hectic at noon? And do I even know my name by the evening, let alone hear the Savior say…”?
If we have ears to hear what the Lord has to say, this will make all the difference in our own personal world; (and everyone we come in contact with through the course of the day as well!)
This hymn reminds us how the Lord speaks:
“I hear the Savior say,
Thy strength indeed is small,
child of weakness
Watch and Pray-
find in Me – thine all in all.”
The Lord is so gentle and kind in this hymn. The Lord IS gentle and kind!
The world is NOT! Oh how we need to be speaking and singing in our hearts the hymns!

Our strength is small, we are children of weakness. He reminds us to ‘watch and pray,’ and find in Him everything we need.
Do we hear Him say, “I will never leave you or forsake you.” Hebrews 13:5. Or when we first sit up in our beds, do we hear His words, “I am the Lord… (You are ) precious in my sight… and I have loved you.” Is. 43:3,4.
Or, when we wake up feeling like we just need 5 more minutes sleep, do we hear His voice, “Awake, you who sleep, Arise from the dead,…”( Eph. 5:14 ).

Have you messed up? Do you feel you are chasing the wind? “Child of weakness, watch and pray, find in Me – thine all in all.”
And the chorus tells us why we can make Him our all in all; it’s transforming:
“Jesus paid it all,
all to Him I owe.
Sin had left a crimson stain
He washed it white as snow!”
How very complete!
He paid a debt He did not owe, we owe a debt we cannot pay. The entire human race has a common need, and that is …
forgiveness. It’s covered, paid in full in Him:
And now we ‘know that we are not redeemed with corruptible things, like silver and gold, from our aimless conduct…but with the precious blood of Christ, as of a lamb without blemish and without spot.’ 1Peter 1:18,19.
“Jesus paid it all!
All to Him I owe.
Sin had left a crimson stain – He washed it white as snow!”
How blessed we become when we remember what our Savior says.
We are not greatly moved. Even though circumstances aren’t what we desire, we have abundant life, we have hope.
“Lord, now indeed I find, Thy power and Thine alone,
can change a lepers heart and melt a heart of stone.”
What is impossible with men is possible with God, “Then I will give them one heart, and I will put a new spirit within them, and take the stony heart out of their flesh, and give them a heart of flesh…” Ezekiel 11:17.
This is power. This is hope. And, I am convinced that this is why we are to speak to one another in hymns.

What if we are facing our last days on this earth. In Him we have forgiveness of sin, we have hope of eternal life, and our inward man is renewed,
“And now before the Throne, I stand in Him complete
Jesus died my soul to save, my lips shall still repeat,
“Jesus paid it all,
All to Him I owe.
Sin had left a crimson stain
He Washed it White as Snow!“
My lips shall still repeat, forever and ever and ever and ever! There is no death for the believer. The song continues.

May we ‘make melody in our heart to the Lord,’ no matter what the day may bring, because we each have a big debt to pay, and…
Jesus paid it ALL!